Grief and Going Back to Work

Tomorrow is the last day of my last maternity leave with my last baby. While I was given Lyla, I left a part of myself back at the hospital literally and metaphorically. Lyla is very beautiful and content, she giggles and smiles so much and the way she looks at me makes me feel very loved despite her tiny size. Today I grieve the 3 I have lost, the ones I had yet to have and the end of a special time with my baby girl.